Today was the first day that I was allowed to shower since the operation! Wow... did it ever feel great to finally unstrap my body and wash (thank you to my friends who have come to visit me and avoided bringing up the fact that I had nasty bed head and stunk)! Unfortunately, the binding had to go back on and will stay for another 3-5 weeks but at least I'm allowed to shower!

I'd been sneaking peaks at parts of my body over the last week... but this morning was the first time I saw my entire post-surgery figure... and that's when I realized I probably am not going to want to get down to 142.5 pounds. I have a new goal... it's to maintain curves!

If I could guarantee the next 30 pounds only came off my inner thighs and arms but not my boobs, hips or butt... then maybe I'd keep that as my goal... but I'm not too sure my core assets wouldn't disappear if I got my weight too low. Honestly... I don't want to loose my booty!

I have plenty of friends who are 115-130 and have smokin' bodies... but they have always been petite so it's different. Most of my sporty girlfriends weigh between 140-160 (depending on their height) and look absolutely fabulous. Even though I'm a runner... I don't want to be a "lean runner" like you see on the cover of magazines... I want to be a curvy one.

Today was the first time in my life that I stood in front of a mirror naked and said... DAMN!!! (that's even with all the bruising and incision scars)... knowing that I'm happy with how I look now... I think losing 15-20 more pounds is actually a more reasonable goal for me to maintain and enable me to look sporty but maintain that curvaceous look I want too.

As much as it would be fun to say I lost 1/2 my body weight by reaching 142.5 pounds... I realize now... I don't want to do that at the cost of losing my womanly assets... saying I lost 125 pounds is just as impressive if I feel good about myself!