I know it's not good for me... but honestly... I'm obsessed with the scale. I try to only step on it once a week... but for awhile I was being really good at only weighing myself once a month (which I know is the healthier approach). There have been times in the last 6 months where I asked Gord to just hide the scale. Though, I don't have the willpower at times to not jump on the scale if it's in the bathroom, if it's hidden, I really have no desire to hunt it down.

I work out 7-8 times a week, eat healthy and have dropped from size 26 to 14 in six months. Shouldn't this be enough? Unfortunately... not always. I blame my weight obsession on doctors and the diet industry. Whenever I go for check-ups, they tell me what my weight I should be. For someone that is 5'4" their magic chart says that I should be 125-130lbs! Though I think this might be reasonable for some people, I know a lot of friends my height that weigh 150-160lbs and look freakin' fabulous! That's what my goal is, because I think it's a reasonable weight for me to maintain. When I reach my goal this spring... if I go lower on the scale then great... but if I'm at that weight... I'll focus more on defining my muscles and increasing my strength as opposed to dropping more weight... no matter what the doctors say.

Even though I am obsessed with watching the numbers decrease... I've noticed that I no longer get discouraged if the numbers don't drop each week. Since the new year I've lost 10lbs (which considering my workout schedule and food consumption... this isn't breaking any records). The last 3 weeks my weight has pretty must staying the same. But I keep reminding myself... it's not all about the scale (even though the little voice on my shoulder says DAMN)!

Even though the OCD in me needs to monitor the numbers, what I'm trying to use as the main measure of my success is how different my face looks. Gord has been patiently photographing me every month so then I can do comparisons and reaffirm that I'm making progress.



These 3 pictures are June 2007, December 2008 and then February 2009. I'm not sure what weight I was in summer of 2007... a lot more than I am now (maybe 60lbs more)... but then when I look at the difference between even Christmas and now... in my eyes I see a big difference, even though my entire weight loss has only been 10lbs.

Last week I bought this smokin' short jean skirt at Old Navy. So on Saturday when I only dropped 1/2 pound... I put on a pair of tights, a small t-shirt and my short skirt and strutted around the house like the world was at my fingertips and didn't dwell on the number of the scale the entire day, but instead celebrated the number on the tag of my skirt being smaller than I have been in 20 years.