Similar to alcoholics or crack addicts, there comes a time in every overweight person's life where they have to admit they have a problem and get professional help!

I know I'm overweight and I hate it... (I've just accomplished Step 1).

In the first 6 months of 2007... I was on a roll with shedding my extra weight... working out with my trainer Devin Sherrington 3 times a week and eating healthy... I managed to loose 65lbs... and then one day I got hurt at the gym on a machine (Devin told me not to use those damn machines... I should have listened to him)... ... I was told by the chiropractic doctor to avoid weight training for a month... well during this time I got out of my grove (it's not the doctor's fault... it was mine)... it only takes me a week to loose the drive to work out... so imagine 4 weeks!

When I did heal from my injury we were into the full swing of building the house (excuses... excuses... I'm good at making them up... I've just accomplished Step 2... I know I make lame excuses and am going to try to avoid them in the future)... but more than an excuse... in reality when my time is limited... exercise always gets cut from my routine first because I don't like it... honestly... even if given the choice of getting a Papsmere or working out... exercise still wouldn't win.

This week... I've come to the realization... I need Devin to keep me going. It sounds weak that I can't do it myself... but honestly... I need to be accountable to someone and it's not enough to be accountable to myself... I don't know why... it just isn't. But I do realize this (I've now accomplished Step 3... find help)!

Now onto Step 4... this time, I'm taking a different approach... I cancelled my Nubody's membership (I hate the gym) and we threw out the scale in our house. I'm going to live an active life (getting outside more with the kids), do personal training with Devin once a week, doing exercises I like by myself in our home gym (Devin makes me do enough I don't like... so I see no need on forcing myself to do it because if I don't like it and I'm by myself... I just won't do it)... and then attend bootcamp twice a week.

I'm going to measure my success completely by the way my clothes fit. Last year, I got too obsessed with the pounds and even when I was loosing inches I kept thinking to myself... but I'm not dropping in weight... and it doesn't matter how many times someone says to me... oh but you are building muscle it doesn't matter... I know this but I don't care... I just want the pounds to disappear! So good bye scale... when I'm down to the size I want to be... I'll jump on a scale for curiosity!

I'm not sure how many Steps there is in this program... I'm just going to make it up as I go along.

FYI... Bootcamp Diaries may come back... depending on if I survive the first night.